Just-friends!

She says that she is her own favorite.I wish she had any idea that the word 'Favorite' stands nowhere to the feelings i have for her.She is beautiful beyond words and so words,in my view,should not have any legal or illegal rights to describe her. Oh! God,I love her!

She has told me that I should not fall in love with her.She is in love with some other guy who also happens to be in love with her(the usual sad long-distance stuff!). In the midst of the love ocean,my role has been suppressed to be of a person whom we call 'Just-friend'. And I see no reason to be disappointed about it.Because, Love ruins friendships! I have seen a wonderful friend in my father,my mom,my brother,my sister and in all those people,who mean the world to me.Friendship is indeed the base upon which all relations are built.

My mind and heart are always through a battle to prove their points.I am a little biased towards my mind and pray that it wins,for the simple reason that i simply can not afford loosing her as a friend.I am afraid that complication will creep into the love as it i have been seeing into others life.And consequently, love also sees more frustration than friendship.Maybe,the grass on the other side always seems snazzier! 

It’s not her’s fault that she starts to feel for me just-friend.I know she is someone else's. But again you can not plan love.You can not go against the basic laws of heart. You can not stop it feel things,it is made for,to feel. You can certainly not deny the fact that we are human. And this makes the whole idea and approach way too complicated.A complication,i only wish,could be penned down in words!

I hate the fact how her one voice or a scintillating smile can change everything in me.I feel horribly pity on myself for all the broken and shattered determinations, for all the helplessness that she can bring into this otherwise self-claimed emotionally strong person.The more i see her,the more i am in love with her.

I wonder how it would be like if she would have be available.We would not have been in just-friends stuffs for sure.Maybe my love and emotions for her would not have been so perfectly muffled,in that case.She would have felt pity on me in those moments and would have gone back to her boyfriend.

The whole episode is way too twisted.She is unsure about her feelings, but is convincing herself what she thinks is right.I am sure about my feelings, but am also sure that it has to be suppressed.
So,where is friendship here? It is gone. And gradually, the complications and the frustrations in the friendship outsails that in love..!!
Told you, love ruins friendships!